...O Captain! My Captain!...

"I went to the woods because I wanted to live deliberately, I wanted to live deep and suck out all the marrow of life, To put to rout all that was not life and not when I had come to die Discover that I had not lived."

-Dead poet's Society (H.D.T.)

At 1:30AM as I write with tears in  my eyes for something i need no second thoughts to witness it, when i feel morose. With tears bursting out from the time friends loosing their friend forever and continue in the end as the students bid respect to the teachings of their Captain. 

Every time finding something new in the words, and this time it helped me from the old fears newly developed,something which keeps me unrest, of the failing and loosing the precious close to me- To struggle against the great odds, to meet enemies undaunted, to be entirely alone with them... And now I find freedom from the sorrows, I realize what I really long for, need for, require for and shall prioritize for now. The close important ones and the important not so close ones.Gather ye rosebuds while ye may, Old time is still a flying; and this same flower that smiles to-day, To-morrow will be dying. Making it to felt how i want it to be interpreting the words for myself. Near the carpe diem i realize i can't make things stop my way and after a point have to be accepted the way they begin. I free myself from it all to-day, but only in dreams can men be truly free its always thus and always will be...Irony it is...

Lines by Tennyson, in-self require nothing in admiration... 

Come my friends

Its not late to seek a newer world

For my Purpose holds to sail beyond the sunset

We are not now that strength which in the old days

Moved Earth and Heaven, that which we are,

We are - - -

One Equal temper of heroic hearts,

Made weak by time and fate,

But strong in will

To strive to seek, to find and not to yield.

p.s. The Dead Poets Society(1989)